The Succulent Club

I am sure you are wondering why I named this ‘The Succulent Club.’ Here’s why…

I LOVE SUCCULENTS.

I fell for one of those facebook ads where they said I could sign up for this membership and get two succulents a month. And honestly, I was like HELL YEA. And then I told a friend and she said, “You probably shouldn’t tell people that.”

Ok, bitch. (jk she’s my favorite) And now I’m telling the world.

This is just one of my new hobbies; along with working out and anything outside. I am also a really good Netflix binger. FYI- I have not officially given in to the two succulents a month. I am sure I will once I move. I am almost a homeowner for the first time. I can’t believe it. Like I was talking about in my thoughts blog post, I don’t really know if I deserve it or not. I think about all the shit I’ve done in my life, all the people I’ve hurt, and the relationships I have destroyed and wonder why the universe is still providing me with such a fucking blessing. Excuse my language there; but, I am so serious.

I have so many things to be grateful for today. In fact, I’ll give you a few examples of things that I have little to immense gratitude for:

So there you go. There are some of my favorite things. You should try listing a few things you are grateful for. It really changes, and can alter the way my day may be going. This is something I am grateful that I have learned.

So, who am I?

So far I have gathered that I’m just another bozo on the bus. I’m unique, just like every single one of you; like EVERY HUMAN BEING in the entire world. I am not about to start shit, or talk about politics. That’s just not me. And thats ok. I have beliefs, thoughts, opinions, ideas, just like everyone else. And I am sure some of mine will come clear as I keep writing. Also, I am just another insecure little girl who is letting that thought (I am so insecure) go. It is fucking liberating, y’all. LET THAT SHIT GO. And love that little girl, or that little boy. Love it hard. Love it fearlessly. I don’t know about you, but I need that reminder just now.

Today when I get in fear, I stop and surrender 40% of the time. But, that is 40 more than it was three months ago. I love the word surrender. I used to think it was the same thing as being submissive. I was wrong. I was wrong about everything. Surrendering [TO ME (and I cannot emphasize that enough)] means letting that shit go. It means accepting whatever it is, LITERALLY WHATEVER IT IS, no matter how big or how small. And it means not taking it back once I have let it go. I believe in a power greater than me today. Whether that be God, Allah, The Universe, wisdom, energy, forces, he, she, it, the color purple (It doesn’t matter to me), I believe in it today. I really do.

But trusting in that power, genuinely accepting that everything is gonna be ok, is the tough part. But I have been practicing. I am not great, but I am better than I was yesterday, and I’ll be better at it again tomorrow as long as I do the next right thing…… and maybe some meditation or working out…

Did that make sense? Meh, it did in my head.

Thanks for reading my blog. If you made it this far you should hit that follow button somewhere on your screen- that would be kinda cool of you. Or you don’t have to. It is up to you!

Happy Sunday, ladies. Love you.

Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! (if you know you know)